i dreamed of a future that is darker than black..

i bought darker than black dvd the other day. i`ve searched for it everywhere.and finally i found it. so i had a marathin with it. haih.. i loved every minute of it. its a really fun anime to watch. i love its setting. reminds me of the best times i had in japan. i missed japan. i missed the cold weather there. its really calming and relaxing. especially in the morning. you can really see the vapour that comes out of your breath. haih2...

all in all, im leaving on sunday. i guess a new life is just about to begin. i dont know whether im gonna like it or not. we`ll see...

i hate orientation...

A Day Out With Sean Kingston....

my phone rang and my best bud called me up to meet him at pavilion. its been a long time since i last saw him. so i went up to meet him and we hung out. talked about what`s been goin on. what happened to others. basically, with him and me, the whole place became loud. the pavilion was so quiet. duh... people working. kids schooling. haha.. it was fun.

we watched angels and demons. very great movie. the theater was ours to claim. we made noise in the cinema. haha. really funny. then we headed out to sg wang and did some university shopping. bought some stuff. clothes. food. haha..

the reason i call him sean kingston is because he sang beautiful girls by SK in front of the whole school. he`s a big guy and quite dark. so it fits the description of the ori SK. thus the name stuck with him..

i had a good day. i went to kl. long time since i went there. brought back so many memories. haha

Time Passes By.....

time after time was a great song by cindy lauper. i once cried listening to it because the song reminded me about the past. the good and the bad. 

yesterday was a good day. i hung out with some friends at OU. as usual, i was always the earliest one to arrive. i arrived even before the shops were open. alone and wandering the halls of the mall. people were staring but i paid no attention. i was minding my own business waiting for the others to arrive. when they did, it turned out i was the only guy again hanging out with 6 girls. oy vey i said in my head. not again. so i had to listen to them talking and joined in some conversations. it was quite fun. funny. then a call came saying other guys would be joining in. 

what a relief. so i wouldnt be solo again this time. haha..

once everyone was together, we decided to go to the entertainment zone. ejat and fieqri played bowling. the girls were screamong their voices out in the karaoke room. imran and i played some pool and foosball. both of which I was the winner. (heheheh) then everyone`s stomach stared to grumble so everybody went down to eat. the thing is, we were hanging out at a&w`s for drinks. some of us bought burger king and sat at a&w. in my head, i was thinking,"i hope we dont get thrown out because of buying their competitors product (BK) instead of their own(A&W)". hahaha. luckily....

then we all together decided to try the batting cages on the rooftop. we splited up into 2 groups for whatever reasons. my particular group had a really interesting adventure. we got lost a lot. we went to the gardens on the rooftop. took the stairs and ended up in another karaoke joint. went back down and took another flight of stairs up to the roof. then we saw the batting cages. the problem was, we were at the wrong side of it. we were at the water tanks of the new wing of OU. sweating like crazy we went back down a searched for an elevator that leads straight to the batting cages. we found it and ended up standing in front of the air cond of the reception counter to cool of. then off towards the batting practice. i sucked totally at first. kept hitting my head with the bad when i missed. then imran gave some advice, i got 3 high ones. yas gave another hint and it worked pretty well too. hahaha...

after the batting everyone started to part company. it hitched a ride with alisa who was driving a merc. at first i thought we were riding in a merc kompressor. so i headed towards it. but then she said"not that one.this one". a black 1991 merc. i was like,"la i thought this one". the two mercs were beside each other. so it was my mistake. haha..

all in all, i had a good time. too bad no one would be around anymore. not all of us would even be in the same continent. everyone has their own paths to follow. some with close friends to follow. never alone. as for me, i`m always alone. the path i`m on is a lonely one. its going to be tough,but i believe i`m on the right path. alone is best. its always hard saying goodbye to someone special. but when you have no one, it wouldnt be hard right??

some people are meant to be together. some people are meant to be alone.

RAIN!!!!

it rained today for the first time in a month. it was raining heavily. when the first drop fell hard on the ground, i ran outside and jumped with glee. then came thunder and wind. i didnt care. i just stood there and let the rain wash myself. i was soaking wet. i felt so happy. all the good memories suddenly came up in relapse. for the first time in awhile, i was actually happy. all the recent set backs were nowhere to be found. i felt i found myself again. i thank god for the most precious gift he had given me. to all of us. the rain.....

Changes

i`m never good at changes. its really hard for me. especially when it involves with a person I cherished. recently i realize i cant linger towards the person if she doesnt care anymore. eventhough it hurts, i have to deal with it. by all means, i have to change. 

my problem is that i always hang on to the past. they somehow rather manage to resurface at times i really dont want them. i`ve always struggled with this situation all my life. sure there are good memories. but the bad ones are just too painful to be remembered. man, i can get depression. 

if you realize, sometimes i laugh a lot. by a lot, i mean really a lot. so i may seem happy at times. when actually im struggling inside. life is not all happiness. some deal with grief and despair. nothing`s perfect. i guess i have to change myself in someway to deal with it. 

it`s hard letting go. if she could, why cant i?

Kimi Wo Mamotte Kimi Wo Aishite

Love you, hajime atta no wa mushaberi no ame datta ne.

Love you, when we first met, it was raining silently

Kimi wa ame no naka de mou wakaru naiteita

You were standing there, and now I realize you were crying

Love you, sabishii kokoro wa kitsusou ugoki wa attatte

Love you, you were acting as if you were lonely and hurt

Boku wa kimi no ichi byou boku wo ki ni shiteiru yo

In one split second, I found myself enamored with you

Kimi ga namida wo nagasu kanashimi wa wakaru kara

I understand you were crying because you were sad

Boku wa soba ni itain da kimi no namida wo subete uketomeru 

I want to stay by your side so I can wipe every tear

Kimi no boku mamoru yo boku wa

I`ll protect you from now on

kimi wo kurushimeru subete wo koko kara

from everything that hurts you

rikai nani mo dekinai nandemo boku wa kamawanai

I may never understand why but I dont care

kanpeki ni wa dekinai keredo 

It may not be perfect

Demo zettai ni oshiawase ni suru yo

but I swear I`ll make you happy 

Boku wa chikau yo donna toki demo kimi wo mamoru kara 

I promise I`ll protect you forever and ever

a japanese song that really touched my heart.. i wish i had kept that promise..