The Trick Is To Open Your Mind and Stop Assuming......

gossip this, gossip that. fun isnt it. yeah. gossiping is sure fun when you`re not the one being gossiped.

when i was in school, i was gossiped of being a bad guy. sounded cool at first. but then it had gotten worse. more bad things emerged. thus leading to fights. rumors and assumptions that were baseless. i was accused of shunning the low lifes in school. in short, i was best friends with the rich and forgetting the less lucky. things were not so easy. people kept looking at me as if i commited a sin so big that they didnt realise that all the times they masturbated was a sin. haha..

some funny things about gossip that i find interesting, is relationships. i find it really funny when people think when A is with B but B loves C and A is gay. (example). i mean although a guy has a girlfriend that doesnt mean he couldnt be best friends with another girl. but the human mind is undefined. when they see two people together they assume that they are together as a couple. i cant blame anyone on this because its just how it works. the human psyche is amazing. so everytime this happens to me,and it did recently,i always laugh. because it reminded of how it felt like to be the person that i used to assume a long time ago. in the end, i had to deny it. or else,things wouldve been bad.

plus, i wouldnt be alive to talk about it.....

Good Lord, I Look Like Sweeney Todd.......

ever seen sweeney todd? great movie. great songs. lots of blood and violence. its a tale of a man`s will to avenge the death of his wife and to punish those who framed him. sweebey todd is a barber. a very good one at that. he is a god with razor blades. he draws customers up to his shop, gives them a shave and then slice their throats. 

great movie. johnny depp. great actor. his hairdo. couldnt say great. much like mine`s. one morning i wake up and i look in the mirror, my mom said oh my god its sweeney todd. haha. what a laugh. but seriously, my hair was out of control. i look like sweeney todd. luckily i wasnt pale like him. although my eyes were blue every time.(less sleep)much like him. 

mom wanted me to get a haircut. too lazy to get one. dont know what`s right for my oversized head. better keep it lost in a forest..

hahaha

An Ear Infection....Perfect....

i got hit on the ear then i couldnt hear a thing. i thought i was deaf already. then it started to hurt. perfect. just when i thought things couldnt get worse. i went to the doc to check ut out. turns out i got an ear infection. i have to be on meds and i cant hear for a couple of days. great. im deaf in one ear and it really irritates me. temero...(japanese for crap)

I Hate Sundays....

Sundays. I hate sundays. Why? Because I am never calm on Sundays. I am always stressed up on Sundays. Always in trouble on Sundays. Always get mad on Sundays. I really dont know why. For some reason, Sunday is a very bad day for me. Every fucking time. It never goes smoothly on a Sunday. 

Only time I can really relax is on a Saturday. Calmer. Nobody to bother me. No one can disturb me. I am really at peace. Sadly the heat stroke is really taking its toll on me. So it bothers me on my Saturdays. Sigh...

Will I ever get peace and quiet??? I really wish I could escape all my problems. Then my life would be at peace...

Train, Sure...

I took the train to go to my aunt`s house in Batu Gajah. I had to send some stuff to my aunt. The deal was simple. I send the stuff. I get the money. I go home the next day. Only problem was, I was alone. I took the train alone. With no one to accompany me. I consider myself a loner at times. Maybe it fits with my character, I dont know. But it was quite fun taking the train. Its a shame about the view though. Not much to see behind the thick jungle. But what to do. I listened to the songs in my phone during the whole trip. Sigh...

All in all, it was fun riding the train. Though I wished there would be a better view next time....

Ice Cream???

I SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM!!!!!!

I am in a serious need for ice cream. I really want macademia nuts flavour. Considering the climate in Malaysia now is very hot. An ice cream would really do the trick. Why macademia nuts?? Its my favourite flavour. I really miss it. I need it.Someone please get me some!!!

Cells

It'll all click when the mortgage clears
All our fears will disappear
Now you go to bed
I'm staying here
I've got another level that I want to clear
My skin feels like orange peel
My eyes have been vacuum-sealed
My organs move like a squirm of eels
We should be more adventurous with our meals
They annoy me those who employ me
They could destroy me
They should enjoy me
We eat chinese off our knees
And look for each other in the TV screen

The sun goes up and the sun goes down
I drag myself into the town
All I do I want to do with you
Everyday I'm at my desk
At my desk I'm like the rest
All I do I want to do with you

On the city's skin they move on mass
Like a rash on the back of a manky cat
Now in I go like a fool
I can't resist dipping in the pool
I watch them watch me I watch them too
Across the street across the room
I dress myself like a charcoal sketch
My eyes are brown and my hair's a mess
They annoy me those who employ me
They could destroy me
They should enjoy me
We eat chinese off our knees
And look for each other in the TV screen

I`m So Bitter

Minutes
Turn into hours
And hours
Bleed into days
It's been years now
Since the trouble
You left me
And I wanna say

I'm so bitter
But I've seen
Better days
I'm so bitter
Is it
The better man
That always
Walks away

No phone call
Or even a letter
No words
To cause me any pain
It's been years now
Since anything
Could hurt me
And through this life
I think my way

I'm so bitter
But I've seen
Better days
I'm so bitter
Is it
The better man
That always
Walks away?
Watch me walk away

I'm so bitter
But I've seen
Better days
I'm so bitter
I'll be
The better man
Watch me walk away

Tagged..You`re Dead!!!hehehe

upload a favourite photo of yourself:

 



















give three reasons why you like that photo: 
1:it was fun 
2:it was night
3:it was really cool

when was the last time you eat pizza?

last month

what was the last song you listened to?
after dark-asian kung fu generation



what are you doing right now besides this?
watching bleach



what name you prefer besides yours?
urahara(heheheh)



five people to tag:
maleh

who is number one?
tinnie



number three is having a relationship with?
dont know dont care 


say something about number five: 
lazy bugger 

who is number two?

between number one and three...

hgahaha

Swimming Pool Filled With Water....

You know what I feel like doing now??? I  feel like drenching myself in a swimming pool and stay there for a long time. The thing is, I dont want to drown. I just wanna float in the water as though time stopped. Nothing would worry me. Away from tense situations going on in the world. No one could ever bother me. No one for me to care. No one could possibly disturb my peace of mind. It would be even nicer if the water is a bit cold. I like cold things. Maybe that`s why I am cold to people sometimes. Cold weather suits me the most. I once wore the thin clothing in a cold climate and did not shiver at all. All my friends were wearing thick coats. I was only wearing a long sleeved shirt and a thin sweater(which was not even wool). I did not shiver for one bit. I love the cold. Sigh...

The Thing About Surprises, is That I Hate Em...

Some people wait for a surprise. They wait for something to wow them. But a surprise can be a thing that upsets you. Like knowing you`re gonna get married and in the end surprisingly your future spouse doesnt love you anymore. Surprise isnt it??

That is whyI hate surprises. You might never know it will do you any good or bad in the end. I had bad experiences with surprises and none of them are to my liking. Which is why I came up with a conclusion to not expect anything from anyone. No expectations = no harm. Dont expect anything. That way if anyone suprises you badly, no harm can be done. 

Unfortunately, recently I let my guard down and got surprised. The result, I was moody the whole day. Hurting the one I love. And a very painful headache.  Then I  looked in a mirror and said "Stupid". What I saw wasnt my face. I saw a monster. I hated myself for what I am. A monster that should be locked in a cell. Away from others so it wont hurt other people. 

Now I am in a cell. Away from the people I love. So I wont hurt them again....