Memories In The Rain

when the rain falls, it cleanses the land of its filth. all the dirt and dust washed away by its downfall. plants are given a new lease of life from the rain that be falls. 

recently, everything has been going down hill for me. i crashed my mom`s car, had a fight, broke someone`s heart and ended up getting hurt myself. but i always expected the bad things first before the good things. eventhough the bad times are always the worst ones, i always manage to pull myself together. i thank god for giving me the strength to do so. i always remember that there is always a brighter side in life. the sun always comes out after the storm. 

when you lose something or someone, you tend to reminisce about the things you`ve been through. you would miss the past. some would cry about it. but the past is the past. you cant turn back time to correct it. im not saying i dont have regrets. but i still feel the mark that was left. that`s what touches me the most. 

when the rain is over, the sun comes out. and light fills the earth once again....

That`s IT!!!!

if that`s the way you want it, then fine..
get out of my life and never come back

Why??

why must i feel this way?? why angry and hateful? emotions are very dangerous for me because it leads me to do irrational things. poor judgement. why????

i hate being what i am now. it`s all because of one incident. two actually. same thing happened twice. really angry. i just wanna shoot that person with the big mouth andput him out of his misery and send the bastard straight to hell...

(sorry..it happens when i lose control of my emotions.. toodles)

"P" Stands For Many Things

P- PISSED OFF

• i was pissed off with someone because that someone did something i really hate and that someone also promised not to do it again. some people you cant trust these days. 

P- P LICENSE

• i got my license!!! hahaha.. watch out bitches. im driving...

P- PRETTY MUCH HATING EVERYTHING THAT ANNOYS ME

• i used to be tolerent to small things that annoy me like noises, words, actions.. but now, any of these or anything that annoys me a little, tends to tick me off. so if im bitter or cruel or angry, you might wanna stay away or apologize if you feel something aint right..
• got that???

P is such a fun letter... 

18 and above...explicit content....

based on the title, you know its not good...

STUPID ASS MOTHERFUCKER. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! GET OUT OFF MY HEAD.. EVERY FUCKING TIME I GET COMFORTABLE WITH MY LIFE YOU JUST HAD TO INTERFERE. YOU JUST HAD TO BE SUCH AN ANNOYING PRICK. I`D KILL YOU IF I HAD THE CHANCE. NOW I`D JUST HAVE TO DO DAMAGE CONTROL. THANX A LOT..

Here`s The Thing

here`s what pissing me off. people who cant accept who i am. DEAL WITH IT. people are different in their own way. if you cant accept that fact, then you`re no human being. you`re just an empty soul. 

i may be nice at times and i can be really cruel and bitter. if you can accept me being nice, why cant you accept me being cruel and bitter too? i am still the same person aren`t i? so here i say I AM A JERK. OKAY? IT`S JUST WHO I AM SOMETIMES. MAYBE I AM NOT RIGHT IN THE HEAD I DONT KNOW EITHER. BUT I AM STILL A HUMAN BEING AND I CAN STILL GET HURT BY WORDS. CALL ME A FREAK , A LOSER WHAT EVER. BUT IF SOME ONE GETS HURT I AM NOT THE ONE TO BE BLAME......

HAPPY NETWORKING ASSHOLE!!!

Shut Up And Drive

went driving today. 3 hours straight. it was fun. the instructor and me had lots of laughs. we started criticizing people, telling stories. then i had to drive on a very busy road. i was quite afraid at first. then he said to relax. dont worry be happy.so i drove the car following what he said. he said i was fine. good. but when i strated to hit the gas hard, he was scared. haha. it was funny. he`s a cool guy. we cursed a lot. haha. really funny.

later i went back home and then i drove my dad and brother to the mosque to settle some things. my dad says i drive like crazy. haha. my brother was scared behind the seat. the reason was i always drive at high speeds. even at corners. haha. i tend to do that. i like speed. the adrenaline rush thrills me.

later at night i went to the market and all of the sudden we had a blow out. my dad,bro and i had to changed the tire. it was really tiring. at first my dad didnt know what to do. luckily i remembered from the course i took before in driving school. so i manage to changed the tyre at the cost of my finger got cut badly and was bleeding all over. haha. first time i bled so much in many years. last time i bled so much was getting hit with a hammer. but that`s another story. anyways, the spare tyre was smaller than the old one. and i was like "what the hell?? its like a bicycle tyre." seriously. it was small. i thought we werent gonna make it. my dad, bro and i got in and put on our seat belts and sped the whole way. luckily it didnt come off..

haha...guess today is all about driving. it was fun. cant wait...

syaz bising kalo aku x buat

1. type of person you would settle down with?

fun, understanding, patient.

2. type of parent-in-law you're hoping for?

fun

3. when are you planning to settle down?

started working

4. how many kids do you plan to have?
3 or wat ever that works

5. what would you do if you partner is unable to give you off-spring?
adopt, or ask to marry another ??

6. what would you do if your marriage is in a bad situation?
try and save it as much as i can

7. what would you do if you're a divorcee?
either find another partner or become single until i die

8. what would you if the next morning you find out that your partner is dead?
cry,cry and cry again

yare2....

i dont know what`s goin on anymore. the world keeps spinnin around non stop. everything starts to go by so fast. it was just 2 weeks ago i got the news of getting an interview for tnb. today was it. it went by so fast. 

the interview was fun. it was my first interview. i thought it would be scary or exhilirating. but it was really fun. i met with some fascinating people. but all in all, it was such fun for me. i was able to speak in english very good and i also criticised reality tv. that was really fun. first time i got a lot of people hearing to what i have to say about reality tv. hahaha

sorry to those who love reality tv.. 

What happened??

these past few weeks had been very dull. first off, i was chased by a big dog. it was like a german shepard.i dont know what breed it was. but it was a big dog. it saw me and went straight at me. i ran off as fast as i could. the jaws of the dog was so close to my legs. i thought i was dead meat. but then i kept on running until the dog couldnt kept up with me. i was surprised i could outrun the dog. i guess two lrgs are better than four. heheh..

second, i was down with a fever. high fever. 40 degrees. i had the chills and my tonsils were infected. i felt so miserable. i couldnt eat or drink. i didnt even felt hungry. i was just feeling crappy. my skin went pale. my head hurts. food didnt even had a taste. it just tasted dull. took me about a week to feel better. although i was feeling better but i wasnt actually better. my throat still hurts. i couldnt drink or swallow anything solid. i only lived off soup. luckily my taste buds were normal by then. 

all i know, i`ll try not to get sick again and next time i`m going to the park, i`m drivin...